Agatha
It must have been close to Christmas, but on which side, I don't quite
remember. I suspect it was sometime in the January doldrums when all was
frozen and gray. My friend Walter decided it was a good day for a dog. To get
one, that is. "I know I'm me, because my little dog knows me," Walter once
quoted Gertrude Stein. With his boyfriend Joseph away in the hospital, the house
had an unaccustomed empty feeling. And it had been without a dog for too long.
The shelter was in
It didn't take long to find her, a black and white ragamuffin puppy, so excited to
see us that her tail seemed to wag her whole body. "This one?" I said, my inner
ten year old going can we get her? Huh? Can we? Can we? On the way home in
the car Walter chuckled, "I don't know whose eyes were more pleading - hers or
yours." Walter named her Agatha, in honor of Miss Christie, the doyenne of our
mid-winter reads.
She soon became the lady of the house. There were always three or four cats
around, most of whom preferred the outdoors. Once in a while one would take a
fancy to domestic life on the inside. It was allowed, but it would have to submit
to Agatha, who suffered cats reservedly. These were tough cats who could send
the weimaramer, six times their size, running for cover. But not Agatha. She
had them buffaloed. And was ever vigilant in maintaining her preeminence in the
complex spheres of influence that only four-legged creatures seem to chart and
understand. The subtlest ‘grrrr’ was enough to ward off feline interlopers, most
of which weighed more than she. With people she was ever friendly, but
ladylike, wont to lavish unrestrained affection only on us few charter members of
her inner circle. Agatha was Walter’s last dog. She lived long and died in peace.
It was on the very day after we brought her home from the shelter that Agatha
found out what winter in
two of us, on the pond at the golf course across the street. I on skates, she on
scrabbly paws, doing her comical best to negotiate the slippery and unfamiliar
cold surface. We weren’t there long when the ice suddenly gave way, and down
went Agatha, shocked but unreproachful, into the icy water, her little paws
clawing frantically on the continually breaking and receding rim of ice. The pond
wasn’t deep. I waded in, skates and all, and scooped her out of the abyss. Now
twice rescued, we bonded for life. Although I was away for years at a time,
whenever I went back to “the farm” for a visit, Agatha was beside herself with
excitement to see me. We both knew what nobody else did: she was really my
Agatha.
Croly Hap, Joe. That rocks. You're very good. AGATHOS means good in Greek. And I love the Gertrude Stein quote. Matthew Fox says his spiritual director is his dog.
ReplyDeleteI did not know that, gawpo - but yeah. Really. By the time I finished the story, I did realized that the one thing Agatha could give me - her helplessness - saved me.
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